Oops, I Did it Again.

I'm not entirely sure if I can blame this on any diagnosis, but I've had a hard time sticking to things. Call it a fear of failure, or even a fear of success. It's been this way since childhood. Once things feel comfortable, or "good" for lack of a better word, I stop. I don't want to deem myself a quitter, because I'm always trying new things and don't ever feel like I'm technically giving up. It feels kind of like I eventually get distracted by something new to do, and this new activity is shinier and more enticing.

All that to say, I left this blog alone for a bit. And I feel bad, not because there was any expectation from anyone but myself, but because I was really excited about it when I started. I was also using this blog, my TikTok, Instagram, and other socials (which I also left to the wayside) to promote my book coming out, and I feel like I let myself down on keeping up with that.

I decided when I started that I would only blog with full transparency; I said I'd keep every letter of every post honest, which is why this post might sound like a little bit of a downer compared to others. However, in the spirit of honesty, I do have good news. While I've been away, I started working part-time, and I'm really enjoying it. It's been really helpful in keeping me social and out of the house multiple days a week. Before I started working, I was pretty isolated, which I truly believe lent a hand to the lack of motivation towards writing (or towards anything, to be honest...).

My goal is to post at least once a week on here and try for daily on social media. Probably leaning more towards stories or reels/TikToks. But I also want to give myself some grace, and not hold myself to any strict deadlines. I know myself pretty well, and that's a surefire way to scare me away from sticking to a project.

I will say, I am proud of myself for deciding to get back on the horse, so to speak. I enjoy writing these blogs, I enjoy making silly little videos and posting them on TikTok or wherever else. It's fun for me, it's an outlet, and I'm glad to be back at it.

Stay tuned for new information, a possible newsletter, and check out my socials if you want to see me in my goofiest form. And remember, be honest with yourself, be kind to yourself, and be yourself.

-Jo <3